Marry someone amazing
Achieve and maintain a healthy weight
See a Broadway show ON a Broadway stage
Spend a few days just wandering around New York
Go to Maine with Laura
See the Mona Lisa
Knit 100 miles of yarn
Knit 100 sweaters
Knit 1000 hats (18/1000)
Visit Greece, Italy, Austria, Germany, New Zealand, Australia, England, Scotland, Ireland, Tahiti and Patagonia
Spend a week at an all inclusive resort somewhere warm and surrounded by water
Learn to surf

1. Jar of Hearts – Christina Perri
2. Alejandro – Lady Gaga
4. Love in America – JTX
5. Animal – Neon Trees
7. Don’t Rain on My Parade – Glee (I know this is Streisand from Funny Girl, but the one on my ‘pod is Glee)
8. And the World Turned – Gabe Dixon Band
9. Secrets – One Republic
10. Home – Goo Goo Dolls
11. Love the Way you Lie – Eminem
12. The Time – Black Eyed Peas
13. Waiting for the End – Linkin Park
14. Leave a Light On – David Cook
15. Raise Your Glass – Pink
16. Last Night – Good Charlotte
17. Firework – Katy Perry
18. The Man Who Can’t Be Moved – The Script
19. Club Can’t Handle Me – Flo Rida
20. Come Back to Me – David Cook

Have fun!

1. I hear you’re asking all around… If I am anywhere to be found…

2. All those flames that burned before him… now he’s gonna fire fight… got to cool the bad

3. Now the days are so long… that summer’s moving on...

4. Ain’t gonna get no sleep… the buttons on your Levis about to come loose

5. Hush, hush the world is quiet… Hush, hush we both can’t fight it…

6. I came to my senses… let go of my defenses…

7. Oh, life is juicy, juicy and you see I gotta have my bite, sir.

8. She imagined how the current would overtake her… how easy it would be to disappear…

9. Til’ all my sleeves are stained red… With all the truth that I’ve said…

10. I think I found the perfect words to say… the sattelite transmits my voice…

11. You get to watch her leave… out the window guess that’s why they call it window pane

12. I don’t wanna take no pictures… I just wanna take some shots

13. And I don’t even know what kind of things I said… My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead…

14. When the signal keeps on breaking up… when the wires cross in my brain… you’ll start my heart again when I come along

15. Party Crasher, Penny Snatcher, Call me up if you want gangsta…

16. There’s a note left on the table… and all it says is “thanks”

17. If you only knew what the future holds… after a hurricane comes a rainbow

18. People talk about a guy who’s waiting on a girl… there are no holes in his shoes… but a big hole in his world

19. I said it. Go tell it. Confetti. Who ready? I’m ready! You ready! Lets get it!

20. I can’t fix you… I can’t save you… it’s something you have to do

I’m going to try a 30 prompt thing I stole from Caryn (who in turn stole it from someone else so please forgive me if you are the originator of this list and I have not credited you) and see if I can’t post at least once a week or so.

Back lo these many years ago, I used to be on my church’s drama team, and I really enjoyed it. Our director wanted us to be able to focus totally and completely on rehearsal and not on the stresses of our daily lives, so she created something called Baggage. Baggage was these cards we’d fill out as soon as we walked in, where we’d write down everything that was weighing on our minds. We’d then place them in a basket. The theory was that by writing it out, we acknowledged that those things were there, we weren’t forgetting them or casting them aside as unimportant, but rather placing them elsewhere for safekeeping. At the end of rehearsal, we’d bring the basket to the center, and we’d pray over them. You could take yours back- sharing wasn’t a requirement- but since Christians are all about praying for each other, I seem to recall that being rare.

It feels like I’ve got a million things on my mind lately, and work is really busy and requires my full attention, so I’m going to attempt to leave things here for the day until I have the time to wrap my head around them again.

I cried myself to sleep last night, just sobbing to God about everything weighing so heavily on my heart, and I woke up feeling vaguely hungover (I’ve never actually HAD a hangover, but I would imagine they feel vaguely like this). I’m sad and angry today. I’m sad at situations that have arisen, at discoveries I have made, and at the way recent days have unfolded. I’m sad that I seem to be back in a place where I’m not trusting God with things. But I’m so angry at Him right now, that I feel like I don’t want to trust. I used to be glad that He guarded my heart and kept me from making decisions that would ultimately lead to regret. But right now I feel like in doing so He is taking away my free will. I’m angry because I think He might have answered a prayer, but not in the way I wanted. I’m angry because if He did answer it, He did it in an incredibly painful way, and I just don’t understand. I’m hurt, and angry, and sad, and it just really sucks.

I’m sitting at my desk right now, needing to be doing about 8 things other than what I’m doing, but taking five minutes to just try and get this out of my head while tears brim in my eyes and I desperately hope my coworkers don’t notice how red they are. And now that I have, it’s time to buck up, put on my big girl pants and get to doing my job.

Please let this work.

(From a MamaPop recap of last night’s Bachelorette)

Excuse me while I go drink a bottle of listerine…

I am incredibly hard on shoes, and really need to wear better ones than I normally do. I’ve started cutting way back on the throwaway trendy shoes in favor of shoes I can walk 40 blocks in SF in, or wear on my bike. I love these because they’re super cute, but are made by Columbia, who is a known provider of quality outdoor gear. I was actually looking up a pair of shoes my roommate has, and Zappos suggested these as being similar. Also, I love that this particular color scheme is called “Mud/Lollipop”.

6/4/10 ETA: In a somewhat circuitous fashion, in a few days I will own these shoes as a birthday gift from a friend. WOOT!!

I just LOVE. THIS. TEAM. They are “my boys”, “my Sharks”, “MY team”. A sentiment I know is shared by a legion of fans, and one that frequently surprises me.

I grew up not caring about sports. I was a chubby kid who loved to read. My dad watched football 2-3 days a week, and I HATED it. I was a cheerleader for a couple of years in junior high (I know, right?”) and I did it for the attention the uniform got me, not because I loved to cheer for football. I’ve attended exactly one baseball game in my entire life- A’s vs. Angels, June 1994. There was like, one base hit the entire game until one of the teams won it with a home run in the 9th. BO-RING! I only went because I got free tickets for not cutting school on Senior Cut Day and my friend wanted to go.

All of that changed when I went to my first Sharks game. I loved it. I had fun watching the guys and learning the game. I bought Sharks apparel and stuck a bumper sticker on my car with their logo. And I stuck by my team every post-season, even after they’d gotten knocked out, because they were the my Sharks. One could argue that I like the Sharks only because they’re my hometown team, because I like and follow other teams too. The Chicago Blackhawks, because dude. Bobby Hull’s game sweater. They were the first hockey team I knew. I followed the Toronto Maple Leafs for a while because they had my goalie, my Vesa (Toskala). The Bruins have my hockey boyfriend, Zdeno Chara, but they also have my friend Ray’s favorite player, Marco Sturm, and Marc Savard was on my fantasy team this season. I follow the Capitals because Charlotte does, and keep an eye on the Canucks because they have my beloved Beast, Steve Bernier, and because I have a dear friend who lives in Vancouver.

But the Sharks. They will forever be my team, the team I root for over any of those others listed above, because they’re the team that stirred my passion for this amazing sport that I now play*. I liked them from the moment I saw that first puck drop in a building with 17,000 other fans. I realized how much I truly love this team when I was surprised by how much just a series of images could stir my soul, give me goosebumps and bring tears to my eyes. Do I want them to go all the way this year? Do I think they can? HELLS YES I DO. Buif they don’t, that’s okay too. They’re still gonna be my boys.

*Seriously, that still trips me out. I’ve been playing two years and I still wonder who this chick who plays hockey came from.

I love love love this skirt. I love how light and airy it looks, and I ADORE all the pintuck and ruffle details. I seem to really like clothes that can dress up or down. I’ve realized I have drawers full of tshirts I never wear, and my “work” shirts get worn with slacks during the week and jeans on the weekends. Even my casual tops are dressier than tshirts. I love that this skirt could be worn with a more casual knit top and a pair of canvas ballet flats, or a crisp blouse and heels. Classic looks and versatility seem to be my thing.